Depressing Post Alert

It's not fair. How come my Dad can't get well. I called him today and their home phone is turned off. He said it's because they had to pay 10 grand just to see a doctor tomorrow to do a clinical trial where he might get a drug. Ridiculous. At the same time, Justin's mom had one surgery and is now expected to be cancer free. My dad has had 3 surgeries 6 rounds of horrible immunotherapy and still isn't any better. I know I don't understand God's perfect plan, but right now it blows. My dad is the most caring, honest amazing man I have ever met-why is this crap happening to him. He's been fighting this cancer for 14 months. Originally his Doctor said if they couldn't kill it he had 18 months to live. I try not to think about it, as long as he is home, in my head he is well. I hate that I don't live closer to him to be able to see him and spend as much time with him as I can. I just want him to be well and not hurt anymore. I want to hurry up and have a grandchild so that he can be a grandad in case he keeps getting worse, but even that I can't make happen. I feel so helpless I don't know what to do. I know we're supposed to give these things over to God and not worry, just pray but right now it's pretty damn hard.

Sorry for the vent, I will try to post some deals tomorrow. It's been a slow shopping week.